Two Years to Today

 This was taken this summer after climbing an unexpected set of stairs..lots of stairs. This represents my journey for the last two years. It's inevitable there will be times a stumble back down will occur, but to know the stairs are available to climb back up is a blessing.

This was taken this summer after climbing an unexpected set of stairs..lots of stairs. This represents my journey for the last two years. It's inevitable there will be times a stumble back down will occur, but to know the stairs are available to climb back up is a blessing.

Yesterday marked the fourth month Gathered and Grounded received our operating permits and our first kids on the yoga mat. It’s amazing how quickly and slowly time can speed or putt along. I’m guessing you can relate.

I meant to write this blog post earlier so you would have a better understanding of who I am and what motivates me to put one foot in front of the other on the journey of creating and opening G&G. Oftentimes if I can’t focus on my feet moving forward my mind moves to one moment at a time. Chances are if you begin to spend some time at Gathered and Grounded you will hear messages regarding the moments and the pause.

Two years ago today, on August 4th, 2016, I found myself in the ER at Emory Hospital. I didn’t get into a car accident, nor felt like I was having a heart attack or sitting in the waiting room with one of my kids questioning if they had a broken bone. In fact, I don’t remember if I took a seat in the waiting room. My first memory is sitting with a nurse in triage.  Why was I there?

My family realized this was the moment we needed to do something. I was in a deep hole of depression unable to function on most levels. There are too many details to go into here, but essentially if something wasn’t done I don’t know if I’d be here today. I did have suicidal thoughts, thoughts to get away from the pain and the rollercoaster I had experienced for several years. I didn’t have a plan, but I suppose that could have come.  At that time the larger issue was I became almost non-communicative and hadn’t been eating. I don’t think it was a conscious decision. Even though I had a body I felt moment by moment I was shrinking away.

Now I don’t share this with you for sympathy. Over the last two years I have worked my butt off to focus on my health.  My toolbox: sleep, diet, yoga, meditation, medication, releasing the shame, creating community, operating from authenticity and embracing being human. We need to address our health on all levels. We need to share what we know about taking care of our mental health. We, along with our kids, have been taught at an early age about dental and physical health, but what about mental and emotional health. The time is NOW!

There are moments I have an “Oops...hold on”. These are moments I have learned to pause what I was doing and/or thinking and check myself. I don’t believe there are “mistakes” in this world. There are oops moments. We have the ability to recognize those moments, pause even if it is so quick we don’t recognize it, and use the next moment. Essentially address the oops and make a change.

Overtime if your kids, teens and even you spend time at Gathered and Grounded you will hear this.  At least once a class I have an oops and say it out loud. Kids need to see we can recognize something and change the course.

I will end this blog entry here as my moments are up and it’s time to move on to the next moments of something else.  Know no matter what Gathered and Grounded is here for you and your family. Even if you’re reading this and haven’t walked through our doors I am here, we are here: The Gathered and Grounded Community.

Keep on Thriving and Flourishing,

Marnie